Everything I do in between is just filler.

Do we judge a man by his success? Or should we look at how he failed? Human history has showed that when a person is pushed to their breaking point or thrown into a situation that demands a tough choice, extraordinary things will happen. The endings to these moments aren't always the ones we'd like though. Oh low! how many times have we felt like giving up? Say out load that "your done!" So through with everything that you barley muster the strength to shudder.

In that instance, when we fail, thats where it should be seen how a person stands. The world has just come down around you, and you have to find a way to pick yourself up again. That, my friends, is success. Do we stay defeated and just let what happens have the last word? I could never let things be that way.

So here I stand. Not in failure nor success. On the scale of my personal achievements, I v had plenty of both to go around for certain. I v always been so sure about the things I believe and want for what seems like forever. Lately though, I v only been sure of one thing

I am certainly certain that I m certainly in love. So much so that when she ain't around I m quite miserable. I gauge time between the last time I was with her to the next time, everything I do in between is just filler. Never have I ever been so nose over tail for someone. It seems strange, to be so cold and alone for so long and suddenly to feel alive, a feeling I could totally get used to.

But I know one day, who knows when, she ll be gone away. I just know it. I m certainly certain that feeling of a hole in my chest will return. Will it be failure? Who's to say. All I know is that picking myself up after that one is gonna be hard. I m sure I will be able to. I just wish It didn't have to be that way. any other way but that way.

How will I be measured? Well that story hasn't been written yet. Succeed or Fail, this is the time of my life.