Projecting

I am so busted up inside over this business. These past weeks have been so abysmal. Between being lonely and drinking too much, I find myself at a loss. How did it get so bad? so far along?

With depression, you can find the shit in most any situation. How unpretty a picture you take is. How stupid another person opinion is, even when you know they are right. How dumb all your things are.

In most cases, my black heart has weathered any storm. Not this time though. I m got hurt. Pretty bad. Something I never thought would never happen. But for certainly did. I debate on how I'll get through this.

Letting her go is going to break me a very long time. Insert sad song here. Export my feelings to anywhere but here. Eject me to someplace where I can get along.

This is killing me slowly and its all my fault