every thought a Thought of You

i need distraction. at work, i come up with names for bands i ll never be in and music i ll never play.

metal band:Face rape. album:Cobra Commander is our bitch

hardcore band:4 little words. Album:we ve been to the moon, and it sucked

hip hop group: Day Nuh Fresh and the Futures. Album:The Life and Times of Dr. D

Indie Band: theupsanddowns. Album:Caged Rainbows.

my mind should be on the job. on my plans. but it isn't. where do you think it is?

not saying how i feel. it feels like lying to her. and myself. a promise made though, be better. don't, just don't say it. change the subject. can't look at her that way, can't.

distract me from telling her: how cute she is, how she makes me laugh, how i hate to see her depressed, a thousand things to say.

i wish i didnt need a distraction for her. when i wake up, when i go to work, when i go to sleep, when i dream.

what's a boy to do?